Once Upon a Fat Girl

Saturday, May 26, 2007


Summers coming, which for me is accentuated by the fact that I'm working as a teacher's aide, so I'm actually about to go on summer break.

Does anyone else have the urge every summer to make resolutions, just like for New Year's Eve? You know--this summer I will lose weight. I will work on my novel. I will...blah. Maybe it stems from my school days, when I always thought I would go back to the next grade thinner.

Why, oh why didn't I appreciate my body back then?

So this summer, I plan on losing weight. So that I can go back to work in the fall healthier and stronger. My biggest plan is to get a exercise plan together that I can stick with.

Ely is such a small town, only 9000 people in the whole county. We have a Curves, and every woman I have met goes there. I joined Curves once, in Vegas, and was disappointed by it because whenever I went it was just me and the person working there, who stared at me while I worked out. But here, the Curves is always packed. It's like the women's social club. I'm thinking of joining again, although at the moment I'm pretty obsessed with saving money.

Nothing like that can happen until Kevin gets here, so that I can have thirty kid-free minutes a few times a week to myself. I really didn't appreciate how much I like being married until this experience. I hate being away from my husband. Two more weeks!

Things have been so chaotic around here. Our apartment sucks SO BAD. I mean, SO SO bad. I have never experienced anything like this. I'm totally thrown by the whole thing. I really thought that I could live anywhere, that I wasn't the kind of person who had places she just "couldn't" live, or things she just "couldn't" do. But crap.

It isn't the size of the apartment, or the condition that it's in that's killing me. It isn't even the fact that everytime I give out my address I get an odd look from the person I'm talking to. It's the people here. They're so mean. With only one exception, they are totally intolerant of Nick. I think because he's so different from them, and because he is, it's easy to latch on to him for their drama.

I want my house and my husband so that we can start living a normal life again.


Anonymous Anonymous said...

It is so nice to see that you are back again.
For the summer: one step at a time.
If we try to take too many steps we just fall over our heels and achieve nothing.
(I should respect this law more often...)
Take care!

3:46 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hey, I'm with you on losing weight this summer. We have close to similar stats except I was 341 when I started in October of 2005. I quit for a year and now I'm picking it back up again. Good Luck on finding your plan and support. For me I gave up on all the weight loss plans and I'm seeing a Nutritionist. As for your apartment complex, I know how you feel. We're in a 1 bedroom apartment but the location and our neighbors are great. We just signed a new lease for another year. I can't wait to be in our own home as well but that has to wait until I'm finished with school. Stop by and see me sometime.

3:15 PM  
Blogger Lady T said...

you know, i seem to get the most serious about weight loss in the summer too. i think its bc all the smaller people start putting on their scanty clothes and i feel like a cow in my capris and 3/4 sleeve top.

i also wish that i had appreciated my body more when i was younger...to think i thought i was fat then! ha! i would be THRILLED to wear a size 14 now......

1:42 PM  

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