Once Upon a Fat Girl

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Boo Hoo!

You can pretty much bet that if I don't post until 10:15 p.m. on Tuesday--I gained at TOPS.

A pound and a half. For a month, I've been floating around this 300 mark. 301.5 today. Gah.

I'm not sure what to do. One thing that might have helped--not eating an entire bag of caramel rice cake minis whilst watching Rock Star SuperNova tonight. That would have been a huge step in the right direction.

In my defense--I ate dinner early, so that I could eat with Kevin before he left for work. I was hungry. Eight hundred calories worth of sweet styrofoam wasn't a good choice. No. It wasn't.

Tomorrow is another day. Tomorrow I will make better choices. I will face down the fear that if I don't eat ALL the rice cakes, I'll never be full again. I will move. I will make choices that support my own self-care and satisfaction. Tomorrow I will do better--not for my diet, for me. I will make healthier (physically and emotionally and mentally) choices for me.

God. Someone give me a hug. Please?


Anonymous Anonymous said...


because I understand how you feel and because I've been there too.


5:22 AM  
Blogger elsie said...

Big ole [[[[hug]]]]. Been there, done that, picked myself up, dusted off the crumbs, and started again. Tomorrow is always a new opportunity - you'll do fine.

5:38 AM  
Blogger Project Mudflap Girl said...

Yeah, those mini-rice cakes are just too good. I eat the whole bag too. I know now I can't buy things like that because no matter what size the bag is...to me its a single serving. I eat at night when I know I shouldn't but I still do it. What I have been doing for a while now is making sure whatever it is I pick to snack on is healthy and is really considered HIGH FIBER. The thing with high fiber eating is that it might bloat you initially, but then it helps the body do what it needs to do. Really focus on high fiber snacking and see if it makes a difference for you. It's a little easier to put down a bowl of oatmeal and cinnamon (real, dont bother with envelopes) than it is to put down anything that came in a bag. Basically that alone can be a goal...No snacking on anything from a bag. But in the long run...a gain of a couple pounds is minor in the overall plan. Other things can do that too like your monthly cycle or retaining fluids for another reason or not digesting your foods as quickly as you should...(again think FIBER!!) Its okay to have a little slip up now and then. If we only lost and never gained...we'd all be so skinny we'd fall down the drain pipes.

6:06 AM  
Blogger Shaunta said...

Thanks for the hug Stella...I needed it :)

6:47 AM  
Blogger Xena said...

****cyberhugs**** Just keep going and moving forward!

7:24 AM  
Blogger duenneschen said...


your so amazing!! i can't believe the ticker...oh my god!!!

it seems like youve lost so much since the last time i've checked in before my vacation!!!! you rock!!!!

is this the book youve been reading since you began your non-dieting? i'll definately need to check it out!

8:45 AM  

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