Once Upon a Fat Girl

Saturday, May 26, 2007


Summers coming, which for me is accentuated by the fact that I'm working as a teacher's aide, so I'm actually about to go on summer break.

Does anyone else have the urge every summer to make resolutions, just like for New Year's Eve? You know--this summer I will lose weight. I will work on my novel. I will...blah. Maybe it stems from my school days, when I always thought I would go back to the next grade thinner.

Why, oh why didn't I appreciate my body back then?

So this summer, I plan on losing weight. So that I can go back to work in the fall healthier and stronger. My biggest plan is to get a exercise plan together that I can stick with.

Ely is such a small town, only 9000 people in the whole county. We have a Curves, and every woman I have met goes there. I joined Curves once, in Vegas, and was disappointed by it because whenever I went it was just me and the person working there, who stared at me while I worked out. But here, the Curves is always packed. It's like the women's social club. I'm thinking of joining again, although at the moment I'm pretty obsessed with saving money.

Nothing like that can happen until Kevin gets here, so that I can have thirty kid-free minutes a few times a week to myself. I really didn't appreciate how much I like being married until this experience. I hate being away from my husband. Two more weeks!

Things have been so chaotic around here. Our apartment sucks SO BAD. I mean, SO SO bad. I have never experienced anything like this. I'm totally thrown by the whole thing. I really thought that I could live anywhere, that I wasn't the kind of person who had places she just "couldn't" live, or things she just "couldn't" do. But crap.

It isn't the size of the apartment, or the condition that it's in that's killing me. It isn't even the fact that everytime I give out my address I get an odd look from the person I'm talking to. It's the people here. They're so mean. With only one exception, they are totally intolerant of Nick. I think because he's so different from them, and because he is, it's easy to latch on to him for their drama.

I want my house and my husband so that we can start living a normal life again.

Thursday, May 24, 2007


Um...thanks to the incredibly weird and disturbing and very very long comment sent to my previous post, I've set my comments to moderated.

To the person who sent that comment--what the hell, man? Why are you spewing your weird stuff on my blog?

I can't figure out how to erase the comment--if anyone knows, could you share with the class? Thanks!

Sunday, May 20, 2007

Has it been that long?

Wow, I didn't realize it had been so long since I updated!

Things are going pretty well. Our offer on the house was accepted. We ended up paying a little more than I would have liked, and a little less than they wanted us to pay. The house is so amazing! I'll try to get some pics up soon. It sort of feels like a jinx until we are actually moved in.

I love my job. Turns out I'm really good at being a special ed teacher's aide. Maybe the 13 years of experience with a special needs kiddo did the trick? Yah.

In fact, everything would be perfect except for two things.

One, Kevin isn't here. I miss him so much!

Two, I have some insane neighbors who are making life miserable right now. I started to tell the whole story, but frankly it's very sad and hard to tell without coming across as a snobby little bitch. Let's just say that ten minutes ago the man behind me was arrested. Likely having to do with his habit of hurting his family. That habit has led to the mom and 12-year-old daughter searching for someone to take their unhappiness out on. Unhappily, my son is an easy target.

On a happier note, Nick, Ruby and I went to Cave Lake with two students from school and their parents. We had SO much fun! Ruby and Nick swam and fished. Nick is a natural fisherman--who knew? The two kids we went with are two of my favorite kids at school. You know the kind of kid who is just so neat, you want to take them home with you? Yeah, that kind. It was a really awesome day.

I'm feeling a little at odds without Kevin. I'm sort of surprised, because I was a single mom for a long, long time and I didn't think it would be hard to fall back into it for a couple of months. I was so, so very wrong. Three more weeks!